Who are we doing it for?

Most of the time, I do things for myself. The reason: ..., because I like to do so. ..., becasue I love to do it. ..., becuase it's good thing to do. ..., because this will be useful, for me and for others. There is also times, that I do it, because I am told not to do it.

A lot of time, I do it because I know people I love will be proud, happy, or rest-assured, when I do so. In the other words, I do it for others, people I love, I respect!

Which one is better? Do it for yourself or Do it for others?

The perfect answer will be: a balance of both!

However, in the not-so-perfect world, and as a not-so-perfect individual, the perfect answer might not be so perfect, afterall. There is always one reason, either for you or for others, that out-weigh the other.

I always like to think that things surrounding us are all RELATIVE, depending on how we see it. For me, it so much more important that we feel great after whatever we do, it can be something beneficial for us, but definitely not something Harmful to others.

Good Friend

Was exchanging messages with a very close friend.

If I think back, not sure why I can be so close to her. In a lot of things, we are just different, yet I am comfortable with her, a person who I have always turn to when I need a shoulder to rest. My dad even insisted that we should become god sister. haha

We were discussing about "being stressed out".

The scenario:

Me: Stressed, and would like to be alone
Her: Stressed, and need a company

Happened at the same time.

Her: want me to accompany her
Me: do not want to accompany her, as want to be alone

My Question: will you be mad at me?
Her Answer: If I am stressed, I believe you will never refuse to keep me accompany. Then, when you are stressed, I will try not to leave you alone, whenever possible (she joked that to prevent me from doing anything silly. Gosh! never cross my mind~) I will not be mad, anyway.

Ah~ What have I done before that I deserve such a good friend, friend with wings :')

Need to...

I found the word "Need to, but Don't Want to"

There are things that are done because we need to get it done, although it's something that we might not be comfortable with. Sometimes, it can be a great deal as we are going against what we believe in, but most of the time, we manage to find the reasons to do it, feel bad, and move on. Life is easier this way!

Change has never been easy. I find myself changes a Lot, and I have hard time dealing with it, when I realize it, e.g. I do not really laugh at something silly anymore and I do not enjoy talking about something unnecessary anymore.

It's something I need to get it done, because I am grown up! I can't dress an adult and still bring my childhood's toys around, can I?

I do not know why am I so stressed out because of this things, I have the right to change to be a better person. I have to be nice to myself. For those people who can't understand, "bye bye". I still believe, have faith that there are a few people, family friends who will still have their arm wide open to hug me, have their ears to listen to me, have their heart to talk to me. For them; "thank you."

Careless

IF only...

I can be a bit careless...

in everything that I have done
in everything that I am doing
in everything that I am going to do


I will be much happier, I suppose.

Mocha White Coffee

The last time when I drank white coffee from old town was in LCCT, waiting for my parents' flight to arrive for my convocation, August, last year!

After almost a year, I have forgotten how good their coffee is. Drank it last night, and again... I was back to the kopitiam tonight, for the my favourite Mocha white coffee.

Stomach is upset, but... I am happy :)

*Taking my Actal, then sleep*

My First Run

Here I am, super sleepy, but feel that I have to note it down, before the 'good feeling' dries off.

Yup! Am talking about my first 5km run, yesterday. I finally survived and completed the run. I think I am doing great. Well... to be fair I would like to say "better than some others." Giving my best, is the best part.

I found reaching the finish line is not the main point, nor how long it takes to finish it, it's the 'journey' in finishing the run which is great!

When I first see the sign "1 km", I feel 4km more to go. I then passed the 2km sign, half way to go. Then I ran pass the 3 km sign, I thought 'this is my limit during my practice in the gym, but today I feel I still can run another 3km'. Last, the greatest feeling was not when I reached the finish line, but when I passed the 4km, I know I am going to complete that run, and I did!

During my first 15 minutes in the bus home, I felt like smiling~ People might think I am nuts. Well, with a pair of muddy shoes, dirty training pants, wet hair, sleepy face, Oh~ Perfect! Anyway, the rest of almost 2 hours bus ride, I slept! Didn't care :p

Lesson that I learnt: Most of the time, things are not as difficult as it seems to be. Always take things step by step. It never fails!

Read the news today, the event has collected a sum of fund that will be donated to Singapore Cancer Foundation. Our prayer with you all, Fighters!