Are you living your dream(s)?

Was watching "Step Up 3" last Sunday. It's kinda make me think whether everyone is living their dreams?

In the movie, each individual is said born to dance. It must feel good to know what you are born to do, and then most importantly do it whole heartedly.

Most people dream to be something. We start very young. Our teachers will ask us to write an essay on who we want to be in another 20 years. Then, we start to write about the profession which we often see, often heard, often read about; Doctor, Teacher, Pilot, Policeman, Stewardess, and the list go on... I guess, kids think it's just cool to be in uniform.

Kids then grow up. A very few of us stick to the essay that we wrote years back. We then go with the flow, following the trend, pursuing career to what make sense in the era that we live in.

Some dream to be a pilot, but giving it up, as it seems to be not so realistic. Then go into business, make it big, and happy to say that he is born to do business.

Some love to do business, who also talented in music. He then become your idol. Along the way, he starts his business in music/fashion related industry, and Boom! He is now your trendsetter.

There are people with religious view who see themselves walking the path as a priest, at the end, not forgetting the same strong belief, they are now engineer, scientist, the profession that they had never think of before.

Some 'gangster' in your high school become a police officer, and very dedicated to what he is doing now. It's life! :D

We all have a dream(s), to do what we love to do, what we are passionate in. However, along the way, practicality might be more important in life (sad but it's it!), thus we choose another path. Walking through it, we apparentely found it interesting, challenging, and in some cases it brings us closer to our dreams. What can be better?

I guess, not everybody can live the dreams in the way how they would like it to be, the way they have always dreamt it. Don't give up! By stopping, it get you nowhere. Not walking the path that we have always wanted it to be, does not mean that we are not living our dreams. As long as we are holding it tight, I will say I am on the way there!

Some say it just right "Don't Dream Your Life, Live Your Dream"

*Am I comforting myself? I will say I am not... But I need to confess that sometime I am lost! Fortunately, most of the time, I found my way back in track. Blessed~

Language or Listening Skill?

I think most of us agree that language plays a role in better communication.

However, I realize that to listen, to adapt and the effort in trying to understand are more important in communication and human interaction, specifically.

Lesson learnt from my current landlady (older lady who speaks only Chinese and Hokkien in Shanghai accent, and also her native dialect, Wen Zhou. Defintely speaks no English and Bahasa) and her helper (Indonesian, who originally speaks Javanese and Bahasa only).

When they both speak, joke and laugh, frankly, sometimes I am lost. I am not trying hard enough, I guess.

Creative People or Sharp Observers with Sensitive Heart?

The way to start writing isn't by writing at all, but by living.

It isn't about creating something from thin air, but about documenting our personal feelings about the things that we see.

Or to Put it Crudely, How are you going to be a storyteller if you have no story to tell?

Perhaps, in the end, there are no such things as creative people; there are only sharp observers with sensitive heart

... Yasmin Ahmad, Malaysian visionary...

Merdeka Indonesiaku!

Selamat Ulang Tahun ke - 65, Tanah Air ku~

Always love the celebration during my high school and college time in Malaysia. Miss that time~

The time when the band would play the song by Cokelat, Bendera! (It had always been this song~)

....
merah putih tetaplah kau berkibar
diujung tiang tertinggi
Indonesia ku ini
....

Merdeka!!!

Sorry that I missed it~

Changing phone, moving house, busy working, busy entertaining others, there is no acceptable reasons to forget my best friend's birthday. =(

I don't know how she felt, but I know that I feel so bad bad bad!

Forgive me~ Wishes come a bit later, but All my best to you~ Not able to wish you a happy birthday, but I guess not too late to wish you happy days this year round.

Send her a little card. Hope that we can be friend until we grow old. Then, for the coming 40 to 50 years, I will never forget your birthday. Promise~

Love you not less than before~ even more, for reminding me that I forget, give me the chance to redeem~ Thank you~


Love you, Wen~

Sad Ending

Realize that it's sad that it had to end the way it was. :(

Who are we doing it for?

Most of the time, I do things for myself. The reason: ..., because I like to do so. ..., becasue I love to do it. ..., becuase it's good thing to do. ..., because this will be useful, for me and for others. There is also times, that I do it, because I am told not to do it.

A lot of time, I do it because I know people I love will be proud, happy, or rest-assured, when I do so. In the other words, I do it for others, people I love, I respect!

Which one is better? Do it for yourself or Do it for others?

The perfect answer will be: a balance of both!

However, in the not-so-perfect world, and as a not-so-perfect individual, the perfect answer might not be so perfect, afterall. There is always one reason, either for you or for others, that out-weigh the other.

I always like to think that things surrounding us are all RELATIVE, depending on how we see it. For me, it so much more important that we feel great after whatever we do, it can be something beneficial for us, but definitely not something Harmful to others.

Good Friend

Was exchanging messages with a very close friend.

If I think back, not sure why I can be so close to her. In a lot of things, we are just different, yet I am comfortable with her, a person who I have always turn to when I need a shoulder to rest. My dad even insisted that we should become god sister. haha

We were discussing about "being stressed out".

The scenario:

Me: Stressed, and would like to be alone
Her: Stressed, and need a company

Happened at the same time.

Her: want me to accompany her
Me: do not want to accompany her, as want to be alone

My Question: will you be mad at me?
Her Answer: If I am stressed, I believe you will never refuse to keep me accompany. Then, when you are stressed, I will try not to leave you alone, whenever possible (she joked that to prevent me from doing anything silly. Gosh! never cross my mind~) I will not be mad, anyway.

Ah~ What have I done before that I deserve such a good friend, friend with wings :')

Need to...

I found the word "Need to, but Don't Want to"

There are things that are done because we need to get it done, although it's something that we might not be comfortable with. Sometimes, it can be a great deal as we are going against what we believe in, but most of the time, we manage to find the reasons to do it, feel bad, and move on. Life is easier this way!

Change has never been easy. I find myself changes a Lot, and I have hard time dealing with it, when I realize it, e.g. I do not really laugh at something silly anymore and I do not enjoy talking about something unnecessary anymore.

It's something I need to get it done, because I am grown up! I can't dress an adult and still bring my childhood's toys around, can I?

I do not know why am I so stressed out because of this things, I have the right to change to be a better person. I have to be nice to myself. For those people who can't understand, "bye bye". I still believe, have faith that there are a few people, family friends who will still have their arm wide open to hug me, have their ears to listen to me, have their heart to talk to me. For them; "thank you."

Careless

IF only...

I can be a bit careless...

in everything that I have done
in everything that I am doing
in everything that I am going to do


I will be much happier, I suppose.