为了这次考试，我已经做好两个月的准备。每晚都埋头学习，已经完成了五六套的摸似题。为了加强听力于词汇也花一两个小时的时间看中国电视节目。学的东西可不少。
上个星期二，朋友就通知我说，星期三就能拿到了准考证。我就对他说，我会这几天之内，去他家拾取，顺便去查看考试地点。可是因为工作忙，直到了星期五晚上才有机会去取准考证，而时间太晚了，就不去查地点了。心里想着，我“大概”知道那个地方，应该会找的到的。
昨天晚上，做好了最后一套模似题，就对自己说，明天的考试我一定会过关的，安心的去睡了。早上吃了早餐，准备好了就出发了，时间还早。为了确认我的“大概”， 我就开了一个手机应用程序，。有了这个应用程序，我就依赖着它的指挥走。我越走越远，路道越偏僻，我越不熟悉了。可是，我还是跟着它的指挥走下去。到了一个地方，我决定，这个应用程序不可靠了。就决定找其他办法，打个电话，可是一看到仪表盘的时间一分钟一分钟地过去，我的信心也是一丝丝的溜走了。最后还是到了目的地。可是，我一打开门，就正要开始听力的第一题。我的心正怦怦直跳，无法集中精力，我大概失去了前十五题。 虽然心跳慢慢地安定下来，但是失去的无法挽回了。
学会了什么呢？
我的“大概”确不够好。我下次还要尽量准备好我能准备的事。我考试不通过，我没有什么遗憾，我尽力了。但是，对自己觉得很失望是因为我没去做我应该做的事，我能够做的是，“确定考试地点”。
Waking up this morning, I was still full of confidence. Thinking that I am gonna pass this test. Yet, the day has to taught me something else.
For this test I had made 2 months preparation. Studying at night, doing the mock up test, and to better my listening skill and strengthen my vocabulary, had spent a few hours daily watching Chinese program. Learnt a lot!
Last week, a friend told me that I can get the Admission ticket by Wednesday, so I told her that I will pick it up from her within those few days, because I had to check for the location where the exam would be held as well. But because of the daily routine, I could only make it later on Friday night, and it was late, so I decided that I would skip checking the location because I thought I “roughly” know where it is.
Last night, after finish my last mock up paper, I still told myself that I will pass this test, and went to sleep. Morning woke up, had breakfast, and drove out of the house. I decided to use a phone application to confirm the “rough” location that I thought I know. So I relied on that application. Until where it got me to some places that I no longer recognized then I shut it down and make a phone call, asking for direction from a family member. That time, when I looked at the time at the dashboard, with every minutes passing, my confidence had skipped out on me. I finally made it to the right place. When I opened the door of the class, the first question for listening part was starting. My heart was pounding, louder than the speaker and I couldn’t concentrate, for that I think I had lost my first 15 questions. With time, I am calmer, but what I had missed, cannot be retrived back.
What have I learnt?
My “roughly” wasn’t good enough. Next time, for anything, I have to make a better preparation. If I do not pass this test, I have no regret in it. Learnt a lot during the process. However, I feel disappointed because I didn’t do what I should and could actually do, “confirming the location.” That should and could might have done a lot of difference.
However, I had a good laugh with my friend on this. It just sounds silly.
