What's done is finished. Wave 2011 Good bye~

Here we are at the end of year 2-0-1-1. In 3 more days we are going to welcome the new year, new resolutions and of course, new hope!

This year has not always been easy, but it's fruitful. At the very end of this year, I feel much happier as I am released from that burden and 'heavy' feeling of having no other choices. With parents' blessing and support from family and friends, everything is much much easier. I just need to try a little bit more, and let go when the time comes.

Anyway, wrapping up each year, it's a must to list down things that had been done and those which hadn't been done yet.

Travellings

This year, I made 4 short trips to Indonesia: Jakarta, Bintan, Medan and Bali. Also, 1 Malaysia trip. Each of them was made for a purpose, Jakarta for the theme park (FUN), Bintan for hanging out with friends (LEISURE), Medan for Family (QUALITY TIME), Kuala Lumpur for shopping (RETAIL THERAPY) and last Bali for the love I have for this place (RELAXING). Mom and Dad are very busy this year, so there was no time to go for a trip with them. Next year, I have reserved something for them :)

Books

Books have always been in my list every year. I actually read a lot this year, let's see: the Millenium trilogy (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, The Girl who played with Fire, and The Girl who kicked the Hornets' nest), Snow Flower and The Secret Fan, The Secret of Life of Bees, Namesake, Sophaholic Abroad, The Lost Symbol, the Lucky One, I Don't Know How She Does It, Opening the Door of Your Heart and rereading a few other my-all-time-favorite books :)

Toastmaster

I am a member of YMCA Toastmaster now. I enjoy the meeting :) I have done 4 projects so far and had been appointed and volunteered as Seargant at Arm, Timer, Table Topic Master, Table Topic Speaker, and Toastmaster of the Evening. The meeting has always been relaxing and fun, even after a tiring and stressful day at work.

The Run

I completed 2 runs this year; Great Eastern and Shape Run. However, I may not want to run anymore in the future, as it seems my legs are not meant for that. Anyway, will see... when it's for a good cause, I may want to run again :)

Application of Permanent Resident Status

I have finally submitted the application in end of September. It will take time to approve, but at least I have put in a lot of effort, just hoping for the best.

Year End Present for Myself
I make it a habit that at the end of the year, for all the effort and hardwork that I had put in, I will buy myself a present: 2 years ago was a notebook, a year ago was an iPhone, now it's a Camera, Canon G12. Satisfied =p~

Other Happy Things

I would like to welcome my nephew, Sean, again. Am also very proud of my older niece as she is now in Primary School, and younger one who has always been so cheerful and never failed to shed some happiness to her parents, grandparents and others around her. I am a proud aunt :)

Things that I have planned but didn't do:

1) Guitar Course. I am in dillemma to decide whether to reserve my time for this or for personal time and rest? still... I have no solutions for this yet~

2) Preparation for further study (I have new plan in mind now... I will not depend too much on others in this matter anymore. I determine what I would like to do and how to do it!)

3) Be Healthy. It's really not so much on what I eat, really! It's the environment that trigger that acidic fluid in my stomach. (In the future, I know what to do =D)

There is no regret in this, as what's done and not done are finished. I have faith that today is good enough and tomorrow will be better.

Have a Blessed, Healthy, and Happy New Year 2012!

Angry People

The worst MRT breakdown after 24 years? People are frustated because they need to use alternative transportation to get to their destination, and it may not be more convenient.

I was reading the news and other than worrying about the well being on the passangers who are trapped underground, some people are making noises about REFUND and FREE RIDE.

OMG... if money what you look after just say it. Do not have to make a long explanation about how incompetent the CEO is, how SMRT should be sorry, bla bla bla...

When things are going well, no compliment given, assuming that it's something that you deserve. When things go wrong, again it's all about YOU YOU and YOU, and all else is wrong.

Principles

Finally... I exploded!

First of all, I am not proud that I can't always control my tears whenever I am angry, very very angry. But this time, I am glad that I have let it out. It feels tonnes lighter. Yeah, I admint that tears have never solved any problems, but they have saved my life. Never ever tell someone not to cry. You are killing them! If they are strong enough, without YOU telling them not to cry, they would never cry. However, if someone in need to steam off , crying is one of the ways. Some others may have their own way to steam off, such as: scolding others, throwing things, hurting themselves (or others), so on and so forth.

Try reading this article: the crying game. For myself, if I do not let myself to express and let out my emotions, I will probably be lying dead by now.

I have my principle in life! I may be young, but I know what's important TO ME to live in this world. Money is important, but it's even more important to live in harmony with others. I am not the type that will start a fight, but I will continue to fight if it's for justice.

Today, I would like to conclude a few points that I should remember for the rest of my life:

1. Tears may not be the most elegant way to solve things, but the fact that it helps to relieve burdens in life is important. You should unload the big block of rocks, before you can move on in life, with lighter shoulder and without grudge!

2. Come clean if you make mistake, at the same time never repeat it!

3. At the same time, when others make mistake, give them a chance to explain before you do your judging. Never let someone take the blame for mistakes made by others. It's not about pointing finger, but it's about justice and integrity.

4. Lead by sample! Walk the talk and NOT talk the walk.

5. Turn to family when you are in need. They will always open their door for you.

6. I am not ashamed to admit that I learn more useful and valuable things in life from my dog (for its loyalty), from the unfortunate people (for gratitude shown to the smallest things in life), and many others that may not necessary have the chance for higher education like many of us do nowadays (like my parents).

7. NEVER ever say that you understand others, because no one does! We will never know what others have been through! If you want to help, be true and kinder.

8. Stands up for what you think is right! However, it does not give you the right to hurt others! You live once, thus don't be nasty, be compassionate!

Quite a list, huh?

I wish I can let go...

I am exhausted!

Gosh... I think I had been working NON-STOP intensively from 9am - 6pm for almost a week. Not even a chance to get some fresh air during lunch time. I am so frustated! =(

I have been back to Singapore for a month and again I have been gulping down pills almost every day! I can taste it in my throat how sour the liquid on my tummy is. For the past week, I have not been sleeping well... My head hurts... Yeah... clinically, I may have been right to see a psychiatrist, as mentally I really need help. Sad truth...

I hate myself for wanting too much, not be able to let go and are not born strong enough. I am so tired~ :'(

I wish that there is a way out~

Discrimination: Name that killed

Did you read the news about an Indian boy from a lower caste killed for sharing the same name as a youngster from a higher caste? If it's true, It's really absurb!!!

Why should the boy change his name just because it's the same name as the other youngster? Is he afraid that people will mistaken the two of them? "Oh... Neeraj (the victim) had done something bad", then another Neeraj (the suspect) would feel that he is being accused? Goodness... What are they thinking? If they are form higher caste, they should be more educated. They should be able to tell what's really matter and what not... But apparantely they not always are...

What is a meaning of a name if you do not behave yourself properly? For example, your name is "Glory", but you act like an asshole, guess what, people will identify you as "That Glorious Asshole." Or if you have a name of a president, but you act like a criminal, it does not earn you the respect that the president may have.

Gosh~ I am really upset after reading the news =(