Have Faith in Me~

They said only dead fish go with the flow. I am not dead, in fact, I am quite alive (!) and I just go with the flow. Year 2012 offers so much unplanned stuff in my life.

I have never stepped in to a new year without planning what to do next. I normally will have a clear picture, numbered goals, and I execute everything as planned. This year is different. I kept the goals in mind, without penning it down, and yeah... my small little brain fails me. Blahhh~

Anyway, I was back in town in April. I am leaving again in Sept 11, 2012. It's a 'pending' dream come true. After 8 years, I am now realizing this dream. Beijing Language & Culture University, here I come~ Intensive course, but I hope I still have the chance to enjoy the city, the culture, and the people, hopefully...

I am writing this post in my cubicle at JW Marriott Medan. My last day at work, and I am dying waiting for the time to pass. It's totally different from my last day at my previous office, it was hectic as hell, and I remembered staying late to finish things up. Anyway, both experiences are different and I enjoy both. 

Four months in Medan is like vacation. I have not used to the life here. I am still comparing; Singapore still feels closer to my heart than Medan. Anyway, I have learnt and be reminded about lots of things in the past few months, about politics, about friendship, about acceptance of helping hands, about imperfection, about desperation, and about love.

Future is unclear. It has always been that way, anyway. I allow myself to stop planning. I am taking a baby step at a time. It may not be smart, but it feels good. I think I deserve this. To those whom I might have dissapointed, please bare with me. :) I am picking myself up!

I see a ray of Hope, thus have Faith in me and always Love me~ =D