Hearing or Listening?

I realize that sometimes I am not listening. =(

I feel bad for this.

I am sorry...

Should try harder to listen, and Not only "I hear you"

New Year's Resolutions

As always, a new year, a new spirit, new goals to be achieved. For 2010, there is a list that also being made to make up for the laziness in 2009. Here we go:

1. Better Health
Exercise more. At least 3 times of jogging in a week is my minimal goal. I just find out about body sculpt in the Community centre nearby my area. Will enrol for it. Other than that, By the end of this year, hope that I can swim =D Lose few KG and keep it that way.

2. Year for Family
Plan two trips with my family. Bali is one, another one might be China. Sorry for sacrificing the time that I should spend with friends for this. I realize I had been taking my family for granted so far, which I shouldn't. For friends, We will have our trip to Simalem this CNY.

3. Write More
At least 50 posting by the end of the year. Also, starting to write a short story will be good =D I should sharpen my skills, after all this is my dreams.

4. Read More
At least 12 new books should be finished by the end of this year.

5. Pick up extra courses
For now, decided to continue my guitar class. Although, language course also interests me so much. Mmm...

6. Better Financial Management
2009 is a total failure for this point. =P Sale is everywhere, how can I resist. Anwyay, for this year, by being a bit busy, hope that I can have less time for shopping. Haha.

7. Back to the society.
Although christmas is a good season of giving back to the less fortunate people, but might be good if it can be a year round activity. Will see what I can do.

Oh yah, Volunteering in SPCA might be interesting. =)

Let me check back this list by the end of this year, to see what have been achieved and what has been left behind. =D

Happy New Year, Everyone!

Trust

Trust comes in a lot of form.

Parents to their Children, Husband and Wife, and Friend to Friends.

The absent of trust will harm a relationship, any relationships.

My parents' trust to me is with no boundary. I am grateful for that.

I love my mom, for standing up for me, for trusting me.

My last few months in Medan, before flying to Malaysia, had been about fighting for dreams that are now postponed, and along with that, outing late night was the trend. I had never regret of those things, but staying with my caring auntie, was another issue. They just got very 'worried' when I was home very late, almost every night. I can understand them now. However, I did nothing wrong by that time as well.

As my 'guardian', auntie was reporting to my mom. The reason, they just didn't want me to turn to a bad girl. (They should rest assured that I won't. =D Too much thing for me to worry if I were to be one)

After that, my mom called and said only one thing: "I tell auntie, that you are already a grown up. You will be able to take care of yourself. Do not dissapoint me!"

Something that I will never forget.

Anyway, the post is not about my parents trust to me. This I have never had doubt.

Why trust to friends is very hard to be built? Afraid of being hurt when you find out another side of them? Maybe. But, if we do not have trust, how should a relationship continue? will they and ourselves be hurt for not trusting?

Wondering~

Robi

My dog, the one who had already been with us for more than 10 years, passed away.

He is not the cutest dog and he is also not the most obedient dog. What best about him is he made me realize that every creature has feeling.

Thank you for all these years, for your companion, and for your loyalty.

We are not the best owner, but we will always love you.

You will always live in our heart!

Wrapping 2009

How should I wrap this year? In a box with a ribbon on it? No matter how I will end this year, it had been quite a journey, a grateful one. People I met, Experience I earned, Improvement I felt.

1. Begining of the year has been a year of searching. Thank you for Mom's endless support and belief in me. Pushing is what she did. Don't get this wrong. She never forces me to do anything. Support and Input are the two things that she offers. Decision is still up to me. For that, here I am! The rest of this year is Great, all started here.

2. Once the search ended. A new starting begun. I got a job, in an intresting industry, a new one for me. A place where a lot of people associates with pain, FYI, it is definitely a myth, in fact, it where the pain is resolved. The more I know, the more I appreciate this place, knowing how it changes people life with the magic work they do. YES! a Dental Clinic.

Anyway, the starting is all about adapting. It is not difficult here. Thank for all the friendly, helpful, and caring colleagues and doctors. Am really grateful!

3. The part about learning is the best here! Being around people who are way way more knowledgeable than me, make me know how much I do not know. It sounds stupid, but I thought to be able to come out from the devil circle of 'not knowing' is to know what I do not know. Phew~ Mouthful sentences. =P

Okay... Let's see it in other angle so that I do not look like a happy go lucky person. How about saying being around knowledeable people keeping my dream alive! Sounds better, right? knowing how much they know, show that lots more for me to learn. As long as I still have things to learn, i am ALIVE!

I like to see myself from both angles :)

Anyway, learning to be responsible, to behave, to pay attention to details, to prioritize, are parts of everything, and I am STILL learning.

4. Improving the quality of life is even better. I had my wisdom teeth out (before it causes any problems), I get the braces on (improving the bite, quality of life - as hopefully after this I can eat better, and hope it enhances my appearance, a little. Hmmmm) Thank you for the doctor who sees the need for me to do so, and the doctors who are carrying out the treatment for me, Excellently.

5. Best of the best in this year will be presenting my parents with "Outstanding Student" award. I am not smart, I just worked harder than others to make up the 'not-so-smart-me'. The least that I can do for them, something for them to be proud of.

Hardwork always paid. Of course, being smart is best! But if you are not, there is always a way. Determination is what it takes!!!

Still drafting out next year resolutions. I admit this year is all about work, with less determination, am only going with the flow. Next year should be better! With a little touch of determination, which I had forgotten for the past 9 months.

End of the year wish is "Everybody stays Healthy" =D With it, everything is possible!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!

The Intelligent

Meeting more and more intellegent people.

Hate to be around them: I feel so Dumb! :(

Love to chat with them: Looking world through their eyes :)

At the end, I feel Lucky!

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One day, I hope there is at least one person can see worth learning things through my eyes, my Life!

Their Litlle Girl and Boy...

I am talking about parents. For ALL Parents, none are excluded, their children will be always their little boy or girl. We WILL ALWAYS BE!!!

For me, it is important to let them feel that way, but at the same time, I need to prove that I can be independent. Not to show that I don't need them anymore, BUT to let them know that they have brought me up VERY WELL, and my turn to take care of them instead. Anyway, I will still need them, FOREVER, if I were allowed!

Every family is different, but I think all depend on COMMUNICATION.

Hope someone can resolve his problem soon.

Felisha Allena Wong

Miss my niece...

Let me tell you about her...

Whenever we 'talk' on the phone, the only thing that she will say is "Yi Yi" and she will keep quite and listen to me.

Whenever you have camera points at her, she will pose, with the peace sign ^.^ V and says "two".

Whenever you have the music on, she will dance to the music. *I think she can be a good Hip Hop Dancer* =D

Whenever she gets hurt, she will say "tong tong a~" *with a very pitiful expression*

She is a little devil who scares of my little doggie. Go Go Mei Mei!!! She just loves dog =D

She is a strong little girl. For me, she is like Mulan, my favorite Disney character =)

Love her~ Muacksss

Busy November

If people go to a General Practitioner for general check up, I go to Orthopaedic for general consultation.

I am so young (Hmmm Hmmm)... but, all the joints in my body is No Good at all. =( Easily sprained myself!

When I asked the doctor why I always sprained, he laughed and said "How should I know..." =.=

Coming out from his clinic, I always have two things:
- a pack of plaster and
- a piece of advice "Exercise More..."

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Here I am... Trying to be a bit active...

Joining the Latin Jam, Yummy bites... Skipped few classes, Planning for future =P, and weeks passed... So Fasttt~ and we are now practicing dancing for our clinic year dinner with other colleagues. They are really good =D I am a no no... Haha... I am trying though.

Talking about dinner, this year is going to end soon. I feel that the 2009 just started few months back. I was just worrying about getting a job, and now, I am going to start another new year, and should plan something to achieve.

Let me use this weekend to plan then =D

Getting Better

I am totally 'home'. That's what I can say now.

It's almost one month since I move in alone to my current room. Everything is definitely getting better.
- I am thankful for those who care and had helped
- I am enjoying the room of my own
- I am enjoying the distance that is now closer to my office
- I am enjoying whatever I have now
- Of course, Landlords that are extremely good to me.

My journey has never lacked of 'good' people. I have always meet them whenever I go. Is it my luck? or they are just everywhere? Either one, I am grateful.